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  "Where are you going?"

  Simone comes back in, naked, wearing one of our strap-ons.

  "You like what you see?"

  I nod my head yes. Simone kisses me as she plays with my clit.

  "You're so wet. I think you're ready for me."

  Simone rubs the tip of the dildo up and down my lips. She pulls me close to the edge of the sink. She enters me and I gasp. Simone moans as she pushes in and out of me. I grab her on the butt and push her into me deeper. She circles my right nipple with her tongue and sucks on it while she feels on my left one.

  "Don't stop babe. I'm almost there."

  Simone grabs both of my thighs and pumps in and out of me fast and hard.

  "Simone..."

  I grab my breasts as I come for her. I kiss her slowly as she pulls out of me.

  I grab the dildo and shake it. "You've become an expert at using this."

  "I learned from the master." Simone said as she kisses me on my forehead.

  "You hungry?"

  I smile at Simone, "Yes".

  After dinner, we cuddle on the couch and binge watch OITNB on Netflix.

  Simone strokes my hair. "Someone has a 30th birthday coming up."

  I smile as I turn to face her. "I think I want to throw a party. Nothing big. Just my family and a few close friends."

  "You sound like you are ready to tell Terri and your parents about us."

  "I am. I love you and I'm tired of keeping our relationship a secret, especially from Terri. We talk about everything and I can't keep pretending anymore. She knows I'm dating someone, and she can tell I'm in love. I want everyone to know that you are the love of my life before I turn 30. Are you ready?"

  "Jamie, I've been waiting on you. I wanted to tell Terri months ago. As for your parents, you need to tell them yourself without me there. I think it would be too much for them if I'm there with you. You telling them you're gay, and oh by the way this is my partner. It puts all of us on the spot."

  "You're right baby. I'm just ready to get it over with."

  "Let’s go visit them this weekend. I'll make reservations at a hotel. It's better to get it done sooner than later. And whatever happens, we will deal with it, together. Okay, Love?"

  "Okay." I look at Simone with loving eyes. "Do you know how much I love you?"

  "Yes, to infinity and beyond."

  We both laugh. I get up and grab Simone's hand, "Let’s go to bed."

  The next day Simone called Terri, but her call was sent to voicemail. Terri was working on this big case for her law firm. We hadn't talked to her in days. I texted Terri and told her to Skype me or her mom tonight when she's free. At work I was nervous all day. I couldn't focus on coding at all. I was usually on top of it. My boss even noticed and asked me if everything was ok. I told her it was personal and I didn't want to talk about it. I left my desk to go take a smoke break. I hadn't smoked in months. Simone hates it when I smoke. She never asked me to quit. I just did it on my own. I quit cold turkey. I had a pack stashed in my locker for emergencies. And telling Terri I'm sleeping with her mother definitely counts as an emergency. As I'm walking outside, about to light my cigarette, Simone calls me. I quickly put it out.

  "Hey baby!" I said with excitement.

  "Hey love, how's your day going?"

  "It's going ok. Just a little distracted today. My A game is off."

  "You need to pull it together. I talked to Terri, and she's on her way here."

  "What do you mean she's on her way here?"

  "She's coming this way for business. She'll only be here for a day, but she said she was stopping by."

  "Simone, I don't think I'm ready."

  "Yes you are, remember, we are in this together. I'm with you and you don't have to be afraid. You love me don't you?"

  "Of course I do. More than anything in the world."

  "Good. We got this. I'll see you when you get home. Love you."

  "Love you, too."

  As I pulled into the driveway, I noticed another car parked in my spot. Terri must be here. A sick, nauseating feeling rushes over me. I wanted to turn the car around and leave. I don't want to see Terri's face once we tell her. I get out of the car, take a deep breath, and walk in the house.

  "Jamie!" Terri yelled.

  She came running and jumped on me. I picked her up and swung her around.

  "I miss you bestie." she said.

  "I miss you too girl."

  We walked in the living room. Simone and I sat on the couch and Terri sat in a chair across from us.

  Terri took a sip of her wine. "So what's going on? Why are both of you blowing up my cell?"

  "Terri, I'm just going to come right out and say it," Simone grabs my hand, "Jamie and I are in a committed relationship."

  Terri just sat there and stared at us. She didn't move. She didn't say anything. She just took a big gulp of her wine.

  "Let me get this straight. My mom, who is straight... and my best friend, who's like my sister... are smashing. Get out of here! Mom you're not even gay! Jamie you turned my mom out? You couldn't find anybody your own age? What the hell!" Terri gets up and starts pacing the floor.

  "Terri, I love your mom. I've been in love with her for a long time."

  "Baby look... you're right, I'm not gay, but what I feel for Jamie is real. I'm not ashamed of my love for her, our relationship, or the age difference between us. She's the one I've been longing for. I've dated different men over the years and none of them even come close to what I feel for Jamie."

  Simone got up. "I need to use the bathroom. I'll be right back." She squeezed my shoulder, assuring me everything will be ok.

  Terri stares at me. "How could you do this me? We are best friends. Best friends don't date each other's parents."

  "I'm sorry Terri. I don't know what to do or say to make this situation better. I love you and I don't want this to come between us."

  Terri downs her wine and yells at me, "I know what you can do to make the situation better, stop dating my mom! Break up with her! Can you do that?!"

  "No I can't! I love your mom."

  Simone walked back into the room. Terri gets up and grabs her jacket.

  "I have to go. I have a plane to catch."

  Simone pleaded, "Don't go. Take a flight out tomorrow. I don't want you leaving like this."

  "Like what mom, messed up in the head? No, I'm out. I can't deal with this right now. I have too much going on with my job and in my own relationship. I wish I never came here."

  She opened the door and stormed out of the house. Simone went after her. I sat on the couch with my head in my hands. Simone walked back in the house and sat next to me.

  "One down, two more to go."

  I wiped away my tears. "I hope telling my parents, will go better than this."

  "I do too love... I do too. Let's go get something to eat and clear our minds."

  The week went by so slow. Simone and I called and texted Terri every day. She didn't return any of our calls or texts. I even called her at work, but her co-workers kept saying she was out of the office. She definitely does not want to talk to either one of us. Now here we are, checking into the hotel. I was meeting my mom and dad at a 5 star restaurant for dinner. It was my idea. I thought I'd take them somewhere fancy and butter them up before I dropped the bomb on them.

  "How do I look?"

  "You look good. I love it when you wear skinny jeans. You know those jeans turn me on."

  Simone walks over and kiss me passionately. I grab her hand, and pull it to my crotch.

  Simon smiles at me. "Are you wearing what I think you're wearing?” she ask as she pulls on it through my jeans.

  "Yes I am. I need something to remind me of you while I'm with my parents."

  Simone laughed, "You are crazy. You better keep that dildo in your pants."

  I look at my watch. "I better get going. I don't want to be late."

  "You sure you have to leave right this minute?" Simone asks as she st
arts taking her clothes off.

  "See... why you playing?"

  Simone walks over to the desk and bends over. She looks back at me.

  "I want you to be relaxed. Come get this love." A wicked smile passes across her lips.

  I walk over and slap her on both of her butt cheeks. I pull my pants down just enough to pull the dildo out. I put my hand between her legs and rub her.

  "How are you so wet this quick?"

  "I've been wet the whole car ride down here."

  I grab the dildo and entered Simone's slowly.

  Simone moaned. "That's it Jamie."

  I could feel my own pleasure building up in my body. Simone pushes me out of her and hops on the table.

  "I want to see you."

  I move between her legs and enter Simone again. Our tongues play before I move my lips to her neck. I look Simon in the eyes. She has that intense look on her face. I open her legs wider and start moving in and out of Simone fast, then slow. Pumping forcefully when she wants me to. I can feel I'm on the brink of coming.

  "Simone, I can't hold it any longer. I'm about to come."

  I hold Simone's thighs tight and I release. I pull out of Simone, get down on my knees and starting licking and sucking on Simone's clit. As I suck on her clit, she starts to come. I get back up and slide the dildo in her while she is coming. Simone could not stop. She came three times. I kiss her tenderly on the lips. I look at my watch.

  "I'm going to be late messing around with you." I said as I pull out of her.

  I go to the bathroom, wash my dildo, then I wash my face. Simone is standing by the door butt naked, with my jacket and keys in her hand. She looks so damn beautiful standing there. I want some more of her. She knows she drives me crazy. Simone is definitely a very sexual woman. She helps me put my jacket on.

  "You got this love. Just be straight forward with your parents. Don't beat around the bush with them. Okay."

  "Yes babe."

  I kiss Simone and leave the hotel. I arrive to the restaurant ten minutes late. My parents are waiting for me at the table.

  "Hi mom, hi dad!"

  I hug both of them and sit down at the table.

  "You looking good girl. You still hanging out at the gym?

  "You know I am." I lift my sleeves and flex for my dad.

  "That's what I'm talking about. The gun show is in the house." We both laugh.

  My mother hates when I do that. I didn't care. My body was cut. I ate right and worked out daily. I was proud of my body.

  "What did you want to talk about?"

  My mom wasted no time. We hadn't even ordered our food yet.

  "I want to tell the both of you face to face... I'm gay."

  My mom shook her head. "Wait... what!"

  "I'm a lesbian. I date women. I sleep with women... I..."

  My mom interrupted me, "We understand that."

  My father didn't say anything at first. He just looked at me. I didn't know what he was thinking. My mom got quiet, too. The waiter came by and took our orders and brought us our drinks. I guzzled mine down and ordered another Manhattan.

  My dad grabbed my hand. "You know what... deep down I knew you were different. I treated you more like a son than a daughter. I'm sorry. I should not have done that to you."

  I looked at my dad with tears in my eyes. "Dad you didn't do anything to me. I loved everything we did together. I was a tomboy and I didn't mind it. Hell I loved it! I was born this way dad. Nothing you or mom did or didn't do could have changed anything." I said as tears rolled down my face.

  My mom picked up a napkin and wiped my tears away and hers. "Jamie, your dad and I shouldn't be too surprised about this. We talked about this years ago when you were a teenager. I guess the reality of being right is taking us back a bit."

  "You all knew. Why didn't you say anything?"

  "We were waiting for you, Jamie." My mom said.

  I got up and kissed both of them on the cheeks. "Thank you for not disowning me."

  My dad looked at me confused. "Jamie, we would never disown you. Don't you know that? You are our baby."

  I grabbed their hands. "I know dad... I know..."

  Dinner came. We ate and talked about everything. As we were eating dessert. I told my parents I was in a relationship.

  "My girlfriend drove down with me and I want the two of you to meet her."

  My mom grinned. "We would love to meet her. Is it Terri?"

  "Terri!" I looked at her puzzled. "Why would you think it's Terri?"

  "You two were always together. We just thought the two of you would end up together."

  I motioned for another drink. "Terri and I are best friends. That's it!"

  "Well who is this woman that has my daughter's heart?" my dad asked.

  I took another sip of my drink to get rid of my nerves. "I'm with a woman who's older than me. She's very successful and she loves me unconditionally."

  "Well what's her name?" My mom asked.

  "Her name is Simone."

  "Simone. Now that's a lovely name." My dad said.

  "Simone." My mom kept repeating her name. "That name sounds familiar."

  My mother screamed, "Oh my God! Are you dating Simone Jefferson, Terri's mom? Are you crazy?! What are you thinking?! That's your best friend's mom!"

  The way my mom said it made it sound so dirty and taboo.

  "Yes, it's Simone!"

  My dad smiled, "She is hot."

  I looked at him, shocked that he just called my girlfriend hot. I laughed and winked at him.

  "Yes she is."

  My dad gave my mom a serious look. "Well I don't care who you are with. If she loves you and treats you right, she's good with me."

  My mom said sarcastically. "We can't wait to see her."

  I finished my drink. "I can't either."

  I left the restaurant with a slight buzz. I was pleased with the way dinner turned out with my parents. I'm sure tomorrow will be another story. I walked in the room and Simone was watching tv.

  "So how did it go?"

  "It actually went well."

  "That's great!"

  "They knew I was gay already." I laughed. "Can you believe that?"

  "They did?"

  "Yes!"

  "I also told them I was dating you. My dad said you were hot. My mom on the other hand, was not so accepting."

  Simone laughed. "I'm going to be in trouble tomorrow."

  I got in bed. "You'll be fine. My parents will love you, just as much as I do." I kissed her on the forehead.

  Simone laid beside me. She was only wearing panties. Her breasts were pressed against mine.

  Simone played with my nipples. "Tomorrow is going to be a great day. I'm going to believe that and stay positive. I haven't seen your parents in years. I'm looking forward to the reunion."

  "I actually feel the same way too."

  I open my legs for Simone. I was tipsy, horny, and I needed to come.

  Simone whispered in my ears. "You want me to rub your little pearl?"

  "Yes!" I said in low husky voice.

  Simone teased me. I grabbed her hand, and trapped it between my legs.

  She laughed playfully. "Ok, ok... I won't tease you anymore."

  Simone slid two fingers inside of me. I moaned loudly as I came after five pumps.

  Simone licked her fingers. "That was quick!"

  "You do that to me."

  I turned on my side and Simone held me. I fell asleep to Simone humming in my ear.

  Simone and I checked out of the hotel early. We were on our way to meet my parents for brunch.

  "How are you feeling?" I asked.

  "I'm good."

  "I can't believe you're not nervous."

  "Love, I'm forty-four... almost forty-five. I have nothing to be worried about." Simone took my hand and brought it to her lips.

  "I guess I'm the one who's nervous. I've never introduced anyone to my parents."

  Simone chuckled. "It will be fine." />
  We walk in and see my parents. I wave at them. My dad gets up and gives both of us a hug. We sit down. The waiter comes over to get our drink order.