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  "Mmmm... Jamie that feels good."

  I slid my tongue up and down and around her clit. She grabbed my head and opened her legs wider.

  "Take all of me Jamie."

  Just hearing her say my name made me wet again. I grabbed her clit with my lips and started licking and circling it with my tongue.

  "That's it baby. Right there. Don't stop Jamie."

  I licked and sucked on her clit, over and over and over and over. Simone grabbed my hair tight and pushed my face deep in her.

  "I'm..."

  Simone couldn't finished her sentence. Her body started jerking wildly. She came all over my face. I licked and sucked her dry. I crawled up to her and kissed her. We laid together in each other’s arm and fell asleep. I woke up a couple hours later and Simone was gone. I got up, grabbed my clothes and went to my room.

  Chapter 3

  I rolled over in my bed and put the covers over my head. The sun was shining in my face. I decided to get up and cook breakfast for Simone. Being with Simone last night was a dream come true. I smiled as I reminisced about our night together. I walked in the kitchen and put some coffee on. I start cooking breakfast. Bacon, cheese eggs and toast. I'm not the best cook, but this is my favorite go to meal for breakfast. I hope Simone likes it. I put the food on a tray and head to her room. Just as I was leaving the kitchen, Simone was walking down the hallway fully dressed.

  "Good Morning. I made you breakfast." I said smiling hard.

  "Aww... thank you, but I have plans with James. He's taking me to brunch. I'm sorry. It was last minute and I said yes."

  I looked at her in disbelief. "Why are you going out with James? We made love last night and he's the first person on your mind this morning. Wow! I hope you two have fun."

  I turned around and dumped the food in the trash can.

  "It's not like that Jamie. I thought about you all night. What happened last night should not have happened. I'm not gay or into women. I don't want to make this confusing for us... for you."

  "Simone I know you felt something for me last night. I don't care if you're into women or not. I know you are into me. I'm not confused about anything, but it damn sure looks like you are. I'm not the one going out with a man the day after I have sex with a woman." I said angrily.

  Simone just stood there. "I have to go. We'll talk about this later."

  I looked at her with tears in my eyes. I was so pissed!

  As I leave the kitchen to go to my room. I turn to Simone. "I don't understand why you want to belittle what happened between us last night. I never would have expect this from you."

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  I sat waiting in my room for over an hour. Why am I sitting here waiting for Simone to come home? I need to get out. I don't need to be with Simone. There's plenty of women who would want me. I grab my jacket and keys and leave the house. I pulled up to LezPlay. A well-known lesbian bar. I sit at the bar and order a long island ice tea. I haven't been sitting for a minute before I get hit on.

  "Hi gorgeous."

  I turn to my right and see this sexy woman. She had a short pixie cut and big breasts.

  I take a sip of my drink. "Hey."

  "Why are you sitting at the bar all alone?" she asked.

  "Waiting on you."

  She grabbed my hand and my drink. She took me to a secluded area of the bar. She put my drink on the table, and we both sit down in the booth.

  "You know you have some sexy lips." she said.

  I smiled a wicked smile and bit my bottom lip. I move closer to her, grab her by the back of her neck and kiss her. She opens her mouth slightly and I stuck the tip of my tongue in. She moans loudly. Good thing the music was playing.

  "You want to go the bathroom with me?" she asked.

  "Yes."

  We walk into the bathroom and I lock the door. I push this mysterious woman against the wall. We kiss long and hard. I pull her skirt up and move her panties to the side. I slide two fingers inside her. She lets out a loud moan. She was beyond wet. I kiss her on the mouth, then down to her neck. I slide my fingers in and out of her nice and slow at first. She opens her legs wider and I slide another finger in. I pull out and bend her over the sink. She grabs my hand.

  "I need your fingers in me now." she said.

  I spread her legs and start banging her from behind. She grabs the sink and starts screaming loud. I wish she would shut up and come already.

  "I'm almost there babe." she said.

  I banged her hard with one hand and used my other hand to massage her clit. As soon as I did that, she came. I pull her skirt down, wash my hands, then, leave the bar. The mysterious woman runs out after me.

  "I just wanted you to know my name. It's Melissa."

  "Look Melissa, I'm not looking for anything. I just wanted to have sex. That's it."

  "That's cool. If you ever want to do this again, give me a call."

  She hands me her card and leaves. I drive to another bar and get drunk. I had to call an Uber to take me home. I've never been this drunk before. I get to the house, but I can't seem to find my keys. Then I remember, the bartender took them. I ring the doorbell several times. Simone finally opens the door. I stumble past her like she's not there.

  "Are you drunk?" Simone asked.

  "Why do you care?"

  Simone grabs my arm and I jerk it away from her. "Leave me alone."

  I was stumbling up the stairs and Simone catches me. She helps me to my room, takes my clothes off and put me in my bed. She caresses my hair.

  "I love you Simone."

  Simone kissed me on the forehead as I fell asleep.

  The next morning I had to call in sick. I felt like crap. There was some Excedrin and a glass of water on my nightstand along with a note from Simone. "When you're feeling better and want to talk, I'll be in my room." I got up slowly and went to the bathroom. I turned the shower on and stood under the running water. I wish the water could wash away everything I was feeling. Last night was a blur to me. Getting drunk has never been my thing. I hated throwing up. I got out of the shower and looked in the mirror. I looked like death. I brushed my teeth. Threw some clothes on and went downstairs. I walked in the kitchen and a plate of food was on the counter next to a business card. It's the woman's card from last night. It must've fallen out of my pocket. On the back of the card it said, "Anytime you want to have sex, call me." Great! How do I explain this to Simone? Not that I have to. I can't deal right now with this mess I've made in my life. I put the food in the microwave to heat it up. While I'm waiting on my food to warm up, Simone walks in.

  "I see you're up."

  "Yup."

  "Do you feel like talking?"

  "Not really. What's there to talk about anyway? You already told me how you felt... it was a big mistake and you don't feel the same way I feel about you. Did I get it right?" I said sarcastically.

  "You're right. I did say that." Simone says as she leans against the counter next to me.

  "Simone, I really don't want to get into this right now. I'm hungry, tired, and a bit hungover. I just want to eat, lay on the couch, and watch Netflix."

  "Ok, we can do that."

  "We." I thought to myself. This is going to be a long day.

  This couch is almost as comfortable as my bed. I keep falling in and out of sleep. I don't even know what this current movie is about. Simone is on the other end of the couch watching me.

  I look at her angrily, "What!"

  She looked at me with loving eyes. I don't know why I was being so mean to her. Well I do know why, she just makes it hard to be mad at her.

  "How are you feeling?"

  "Better."

  "That's good. I'm glad you're feeling better."

  "Look, I know you want to talk. I just don't see what good it'll do. You said what you had to say already."

  "You're right Jamie. I just want you to know, the way I acted and what I said to you yesterday was insensitive and totally out of character for me. I was confused about w
hat we did and how I felt. I reacted badly and I'm sorry Jaime. This... you... it has never happened to me before."

  "It's fine Simone. I get it. I do. It was something that happened and we should move on."

  "Do you love me?"

  I looked at her with tears in my eyes. "Do I love you? More than you will ever know."

  Simone moved next to me. I got up to leave, but she grabbed my arm.

  "Don't leave?"

  "Why would you ask me that?" I said rolling my eyes at her.

  "Because you told me you did last night. Even though you were drunk and was with someone else."

  "That chick was a mistake. I had sex with her in the bathroom of a lesbian bar. I don't even know her name. Why am I even explaining this to you? We're not together, plus you got that James dude you're probably sleeping with."

  My voice went seven octaves higher. I never heard myself sound like that. I was so angry and hurt. I hated myself for messing around with that woman. I regretted moving in with Simone. I should've stayed at my parent's house.

  "I'm not doing anything with James. I admit, I did go out with him yesterday to sleep with him. I was having some internal issues going on with myself and I almost did something stupid. We didn't have sex, but we came close to it."

  "I don't want to hear this!" I yelled.

  "You need to hear this, so sit down, please."

  I sat back down on the couch.

  "As I was saying, we were in his bedroom and he was kissing me on my neck and sucking on my ears. He started to take my shirt off. The whole time this was happening, all I could think about was you. How you kissed me. How you held me. The way you made love to me. I didn't feel any of those things with him. I looked at James and he was completely naked. He started to unzip my pants, but I slapped his hands away. He looked at me like I was crazy. I grabbed my shirt. Got dressed and left his house. He's been calling and texting me. Asking what's going on with me. I finally called him back. I told him I was sorry, but I couldn't see him anymore. What I'm trying to say is, no one has ever affected me the way you do. I'm not a lesbian, gay, or whatever. I don't know what it is, but I can't get you out of my head. I know you're mad at me, but I'm asking you to forgive me, so we can get past this and see where it can lead. If you want to... if you want this... if you still want me?

  Simone looked at me with yearning in her eyes. I leaned over and kissed her. My eyes were filled with tears as they flowed down my face. She held me close to her.

  "I don't care about that woman either. From now on, if you are pissed at me, you talk to me, not screw someone to get back at me or get over me."

  "I promise. It will never happen again."

  Simone got up and took my hand.

  "Let’s go to bed."

  Simone unbuttoned her shirt and let it hang open. She didn't have a bra or panties on. I stepped back and looked at her body. She was definitely sexy for an older woman. She took my hand and we walked over to her bed. She let her shirt fall to the ground. She then took my clothes off. We were both naked, kissing and touching each other. It felt like a magnet was pulling us together. As we were kissing, I pushed her toward the bed, we fell on the bed and started laughing.

  Simone looked at me. "You know I'm 15 years older than you. You can have any woman you want, why me?"

  "I've wanted you since I was 16. Hell, I've been in love with you since I was 16. Here I am now, a grown woman, in bed with you. This right here... right now... is everything to me." I leaned in and kissed Simone passionately.

  I felt her wetness as I rubbed her lips and clit with my fingers. I could tell she loved when I rub her clit slow. She moaned softly in my ear. We continued to kiss and I slipped two fingers inside her. She let out a soft moan. While I was fingering her, I slowly went down her body giving her kisses. I started kissing her on her neck, then her breasts, then her stomach. I finally made it to her clit. I kissed her clit several times. Her juices were all over my fingers and hand. I licked her fast then slow. I pumped my fingers in and out of her in the same rhythm as my tongue. Simone let out several passionate screams. I pulled my fingers out and pulled Simone down to my face. I licked all the juices coming from her. She tasted so good. I looked up at her. I could tell she was almost there.

  "Jamie, I'm about to come."

  Thirsty seconds later, she came... Hard! Her body would not stop shaking. Tears were rolling down her face.

  "Are you crying Simone? Did I hurt you?"

  "No you didn't. I just never had anyone make love to me the way you just did."

  I crawled up Simone's body, laid next to her, and kissed her. We held each other and fell asleep in each other’s arms.

  The next morning, I woke up to Simone kissing and sucking my breasts.

  "Well good morning. I see someone woke up in a good mood." I said as I ran my fingers through her hair.

  "Yes I did."

  Simone continued to suck on my breasts. Her lips were soft and wet. I love when she sucks my breasts. She slid her hand down to my leg and started rubbing my clit in a circular motion. I started rubbing her also.

  "You are so wet."

  "You are too."

  Simone got on top of me. She placed her lips on top of mines. Our clits were touching. I grabbed her by the waist.

  "You feel so good Simone."

  "Am I doing it right?" Simone asked.

  "Yes!"

  Simone smiled down at me then threw her head back and started riding me slowly. Her face looked so lovely and intense. Her eyes are closed. She looked like she was enjoying the ride. I know I'm enjoying her. I reach up and cup her breasts. She puts her hands over my hands.

  Simon starts riding me faster and harder. "I want to come inside you."

  I open my legs wider for her. I can feel her liquid love running down my leg and butt. I was so wet, I could not hold it.

  "Simone, I'm about to come."

  "Come for me babe." she said.

  I grab her waist and start grinding her hard. She starts kissing my neck. I grab her butt and I come. I look at her and I can tell she's almost there.

  "I'm coming love."

  Simone came inside me. She kept riding me. "I'm about to come again." she said.

  She put her hands on my stomach and starts banging our clits together. Simone starts moaning loudly and came again. She rolled over on the bed. We were exhausted.

  Simone planted kisses all over my face. "I haven't felt like this in a long time. So open, so free. You definitely do something to me... to my body."

  We cuddled and talked for a while before we got up to start our day.

  Chapter 4

  "Hey love."

  "Hey babe." I walked over to Simone. I put my arms around her waist and kiss her.

  "Mmm... those lips." Simone said. "So damn sexy."

  "You're sexy." I said as I winked at her. "Dinner is almost ready. I put some garlic bread in the oven. Can you watch it for me while I jump in the shower?"

  Simone slaps me on my butt. "I got you."

  I leave the kitchen and go to our bedroom. I moved all of my things from my bedroom to Simone's room. Being with Simone these past couple months has been amazing. I never thought I'd be with the woman I've been in love with the majority of my life. We've kept our relationship a secret. Telling my parents and Terri is something I was not looking forward to.

  "Jamie, you dressed yet? Dinner is ready." I heard Simone say as I was getting out of the shower.

  "No, not yet."

  Simone walks into the bathroom and wraps a towel around me.

  "Thank you babe."

  "You are so sexy." Simone says as she slides her hand up my leg.

  All of a sudden I get shy. "I am?"

  "Yes, you are." Simone starts kissing me on my neck.

  "Simone, dinner is going to get cold."

  "It'll be fine. We can always heat it up. Now hop on the sink."

  I hop on the bathroom sink. She spreads my legs wide and begins rubbing her hand up and
down my clit.

  Simone smiled a wicked grin. "I like how you get so wet for me."

  Simone walks out of the bathroom and leaves me sitting on the sink.